Slow down you crazy child You're so ambitious for a juvenile But then if you're so smart tell me why you are still so afraid? Hmmm? Well one thing's for sure. I'm definitely crazy. At times I think this makes me unique in the endearing sense, but most of the time I wonder if it's more like "unique." You know, when you describe someone by using the quote fingers and a cheesy smile for "um, different."
Will I always be like this? Confidently insecure (I'm okay with that) - Insecurely confident (Yeah I said it! And?!).
And I am afraid, but since I'm a Capricorn I'll cop that to a "yes, I think a healthy dose of fear allows us to maintain a practical perspective on things...".
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about? You better cool it off before you burn it out You got so much to do and only so many hours in a day
Hmmm. I do think I burned myself out. For a while there (heh, the past 2 years) I was thinking that was such a shameful thing. "No one can possibly burn out before they've even gotten started!" But now, I don't think that as much. I welcome this quarter-life crisis simply because I'm not dead yet, so this must be making me stronger.
I've realized that it's important to be my own pacemaker before I wind up needing a real one. I'm still not sure what I want, and while the rest of society is streaking past me in hot neon colors, I'm glad that I'm able to stand still and wonder what the hurry must be about. I guess I'm just unique like that. (Dear Nikki: I'm thinking about the Cheshire Cat's quote to Alice right now =))
But you know that when the truth is told That you can get what you want Or you can just get old You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through When will you realize...Vienna waits for you
Ew. Don't wanna just get old. It makes me speak in a Haley Joel Osment whisper: I see old people. And who wants to be a Bruce Willis in THAT moment?! Not I said the blackbird.
Granted, it may take me til I'm old before I get whatever it is and all that I want. But I assure you that my Vienna is a part of that journey. In fact, I'm enjoying one of Vienna's side streets right now. Sure it may not be the finest, swankiest part of my Vienna, but I'm seeing the sights off the beaten paths and I'm learning...
Slow down you're doing fine You can't be everything you want to be Before your time
That's right. Say those 3 lines to yourself. Sing them into your memory so you can remind yourself when you break a sweat running after something, so you can calm yourself when you break an anxious sweat worrying...
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight Too bad but it's the life you lead You're so ahead of yourself That you forgot what you need
Precisely Billy, precisely. (How? I ask you. HOW is the man so insightful? This is genius!) I have forgotten what I need. The life I lead feels like it belongs to somebody else at times. It's stifling and scary to wake up, know you didn't have a drink the night before, and yet still wonder how you got to where you are - bewildered, a bit numb to the world, scratching your head tryin' to get it going.
Though you can see when you're wrong You know you can't always see when you're right
I can't see that I'm right right now. This bothers me because I have Type A tendencies. It is NOT helpful to have people telling me that I'm wrong but I'm alright either. (Sorry bout that slip. Just recieved a blistering lecture, no chastising, about how I'm not behaving like an adult should...) Someday, y'all are going to be on my vh1 special or something talking about how I was never really fitting into the 9-5 world, I can feel it =)
You got your passion you got your pride But don't you know only fools are satisfied? Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true When will you realize Vienna waits for you
See?! And while I've been gullible, stubborn, naive, impetuous and just plain stupid I've yet to have been satisfied. A truly special and lovely, brilliant man once said:
You may think that I'm a dreamer/But I'm not the only one
Slow down you crazy child Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two When will you realize... Vienna waits for you.
Ha! I rarely hear my phone when it rings because I'm always lost in thought. Plus it rarely rings and when it does I'm always in a mild state of shock, staring at the brightly blinking ringing thing.
Are we supposed to Carpe Diem every day? Is that even possible? I try to do my best each day, but you know what? Your "best" can mean many things. Some days maybe we just need to give our "best rest," while others make require our "best efforts," and others still may be survived by way of our "best resolves" or our "best tries." The important thing that Billy boy is crooning to us is that we didn't start the fire. It was always burning since the world's been turning, and it's gonna go on and on and on and on. We're just tenders of the flame, people. So you might as well get yourself some marshmallows...
Kum-ba-ya, my friends, kum-ba-ya.
(That is my best Jon Stewart impression by the way, lol =))